When I first found out I was pregnant I assured my boss that I would be fine to keep working! Hell, I’ll be working until I go into labour, of course! Why wouldn’t I? After all, my job isn’t physically taxing at all, I can do it from home. Besides, Marissa Mayer from Yahoo worked until like 2 days before having her baby. How hard can it be?
As it turns out, it’s surprisingly difficult doing a mentally taxing job when your brain just. won’t. work.
My concentration is shot and everything takes me so much longer. The worst part is, my job is the kind where the work doesn’t end. There’s always “just one more thing”, and because I’m so much slower than before, and because I’m working from home now, that tends to result in me still being on my computer attempting to be productive late into the evening.
And then, because I’m spending so much time working (albeit very ineffectively!) I stress about all the other stuff that needs doing – finishing off packing the hospital bag, making sure we have everything we need, figuring out where I put those damn 7 nappies that have disappeared somewhere, tidying the house, remembering to not starve the animals or myself…
It’s become a vicious cycle where I get distracted worrying about everything I have to do, which means work takes longer, which means I get less done, which means I worry more. And all of this with lots of hormones to make me extra crazy!
The Cap’s been picking up a lot of slack (which he’s had to do a lot through this pregnancy), but he’s working full time as well, and tiring himself out while fighting off the cold that I brought home (sorry honey) hasn’t been the best idea, and he’s now in bed with a cold and fever 😦
I finally realised my folly when I woke up to the fact that Marissa Mayer gets paid more than me – probably somewhere in the realm of 15 times my income – and could afford to outsource her nesting and food arrangements if necessary.
So tomorrow will be my last day of work for a while. I’m sure I’ll miss it eventually, but right now I can’t wait to finish up and get stuck into all of the other things I’ve been wanting to do. Oh, and maybe get some rest too – while I can!